Sw:114kg CW:108 kg GW1:100kg GW2:90kg GW3:80kg GW4:70kg... *for now* 172cm
That skinny girl walking down the street that attracts every gaze. That skinny girl in your class that everybody likes. That skinny girl at work that makes everything she wears look like it was made for her. That skinny girl on the cover of a magazine. That could be you. But you’re to busy eating.
“Did you loose weight?”
“You look thinner lately!”
“I wish I had a thigh gap like yours!”
“You’re so small!”
“You look really good lately!”
“You are body goals!”
“I wish I was thin like you.”
“I wish I had your body!”
“Didn’t you use to be fat?”
“I’m jealous of your weight!”
“You’re the skinny friend.”
“You lost weight! You look great!”
food = acne
food= fat
food = sadness
food = self hatred
starving= clear skin
starving= skinny
starving= happiness
starving= body goals
i know which i would choose
food = acne
food= fat
food = sadness
food = self hatred
starving= clear skin
starving= skinny
starving= happiness
starving= body goals
i know which i would choose
Until my boyfriend actually worries about me instead of encourages me,
Until my friends and family notice just how much weight I’ve really lost,
Until none of my clothes fit and I’m forced to buy a whole new wardrobe,
Until my stomach is flat, my waist tiny, my fingers dainty,
Until I’m someone’s thinspo or body goals,
Until they say “You’re so skinny!” instead of “You’re not fat”,
Until they ask, “What’s your secret?”
Until they ask, “Do you even eat?”
Until I’m dead.
“Did you loose weight?”
“You look thinner lately!”
“I wish I had a thigh gap like yours!”
“You’re so small!”
“You look really good lately!”
“You are body goals!”
“I wish I was thin like you.”
“I wish I had your body!”
“Didn’t you use to be fat?”
“I’m jealous of your weight!”
“You’re the skinny friend.”
“You lost weight! You look great!”
🌸 reasons to lose weight 🌸
1. distract yourself. learn an instrument, draw a picture, learn the lyrics to a song you like. do anything but eat. (i’ll post ways to distract yourself later.)
2. drink plenty of water. if you’re hungry, chug down a glassful of water.
3. write down the reasons you want to be skinny. look at pictures of models or people you’d define as “body goals”.
4. listen to songs that make you feel depressed. i suggest “teen idle” by marina and the diamonds. i listen to it when i’m hungry or want to break my diet - it works every time!
5. look up meanspo + thinspo.
6. exercise. you can even space it out through the day - do 10 jumping jacks every hour so then you’ll do 100 by the end of the day.
7. learn to love pain. i do 100-200 squats every night, and even if it hurts i still keep on going. you’ll eventually get addicted to the good feeling you get after you work out.
8. don’t fast for more than a few days. eat a few veggies or fruit in between.
9. brush your teeth if you’re hungry, or have some gum. don’t always have gum, as it will make your stomach think you are eating and just expand the hunger.
10. try eating ice.
11. always have an excuse ready if someone asks why you aren’t eating. (i posted some here: https://promisesandheartbreak.tumblr.com/post/154154639937/ana-excuses )
12. if it really comes down to it, eat with your family or friends to avoid suspicion. purge after, if you want or eat as little as possible during the meal.
13. if you don’t want to purge or exercise, have a cold bath. it’s actually pretty relaxing once you get used to it.
14. drink green tea to boost your metabolism - it also has no calories.
15. if you’re new to ana, start by restricting the amount of calories bit by bit to avoid your body reacting really badly to the sudden change.
I can’t wait for the day when I’m so skinny people reblog my pictures for thinspiration
the biggest motivation for me is the fact that I’ve never seen myself skinny
so I don’t know what I’ll look like
I don’t know if my hip bones are pointed or if they’re more rounded
I don’t know if I’ll have a wide or a narrow thigh gap
I don’t know if my rib cage is tapered or straight
but I’m going to find out when I see them
This is… Really cool. Learning the shape of your own skeleton.
so interesting but also fucked up that we’re all fascinated by this lol
^^ it honestly is
Now that I’m thin, when I binge and buy large amounts of food, I don’t feel as terrible because I imagine the cashier or people around me thinking
“Wow. He eats so much and is still so thin”
Binging while skinny is no where near as embarrassing as binging when you’re fat.
anas-sadness
starvationtrainstation
When you don’t know if your pants are baggy because you’ve lost weight or because your fat ass stretched them out:
